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sunset sunrise [Nov. 1st, 2010|07:46 pm]
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I've been having a hard time getting through the Fujimi book Sunset, Sunrise (God, what volume am I at now? it's so confusing...). It's painful to read because Yuki (and others) struggles a lot in it. I know it'll pay off but it's still hard because I care about the characters. I've been skipping around the volume and have probably read most of it completely out of order. It's confusing, but lessens the pain. :P


Kei, Kei, Kei. He tries to control himself way too much. I know it's in his nature and in his upbringing, but it's really disturbing to read at times. Yuki is so much more normal in that regard. That whole business of vowing to never showing any weakness re: music to Yuki again is just bizarre and extreme. And that last sentence, about having a bad dream and squashing it immediately? Freaky.

I loved his analysis of Yuki's personality (during sex, no less...such a multitasker, that one!), especially his suspicion that Yuki is even more of a perfectionist and has more pride than him. It's compelling to think that part of the reason Yuki didn't aspire to more earlier was that he couldn't bear the idea of trying and failing. I like how from Kei's POV Yuki has a dual nature, in that he is pure and sweet but also very stubborn, just as he can be innocent-seeming in bed or very very wanton. And just how much that appeals to Kei. I also love how he knows that Yuki has to learn to let himself loose and show what is inside of himself in order to become a truly great violinist. Kei is torn between wanting to see Yuki succeed and wanting to keep Yuki for himself. He wants Yuki to play like how he played next to the river, completely wild and free. It's a lovely image that contrasts so well with the struggle Yuki is going through in the main story to try to find his sound.
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[User Picture]From: wednesday_10_00
2010-11-02 12:55 pm (UTC)
during sex, no less...such a multitasker, that one!

Can't remember what book it's in, but I remember one scene where Kei is telling Yuuki something (serious and TOTALLY unromantic) he was thinking about during sex, and Yuuki is like, "THAT'S what you were thinking about while we were having sex??" and Kei says, "Well, I have to distract myself so I can last longer." Kei cracks me up so much. XD
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[User Picture]From: insaneneko
2010-11-04 04:51 am (UTC)
*laughs* Kei is such fun, especially when he's deadly serious (like his declarations of love--romantic, but hilarious too).
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[User Picture]From: sara_tanaquil
2010-11-02 02:26 pm (UTC)
Isn't that line about having a bad dream and squashing it the beginning of the whole arc (or sub-arc, I dunno) where he's suppressing his fears and having nightmares and refusing to talk to Yuuki about them, and Yuuki has to drag it out of him? I've only caught bits of that arc from skimming, but I remember thinking "Oh, so THAT'S what that line meant."

I agree, Kei is terrifyingly locked-down, probably from having to deal with his crazy family. It's so nice to see him gradually let go of some of that control around Yuuki, although it doesn't come easily. And that Yuuki is stubborn enough to fight him until he opens up.

(LOL on Yuuki's stubbornness. I love that every time another character is talking about Yuuki to someone else, they're all "He's very sweet and takes care of people, but watch out for that stubborn pride of his!" Other people always know us better than we know ourselves.)
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[User Picture]From: insaneneko
2010-11-04 04:53 am (UTC)
I love how he's called that stubborn git from Echigo by his violin teacher. He'd had to have been stubborn to get where he is musically considering just how disadvantaged he was (son of a farmer in the middle of nowhere who started playing rather late in life for a pro).
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