||[Nov. 1st, 2010|07:46 pm]
I've been having a hard time getting through the Fujimi book Sunset, Sunrise (God, what volume am I at now? it's so confusing...). It's painful to read because Yuki (and others) struggles a lot in it. I know it'll pay off but it's still hard because I care about the characters. I've been skipping around the volume and have probably read most of it completely out of order. It's confusing, but lessens the pain. :P
Kei, Kei, Kei. He tries to control himself way too much. I know it's in his nature and in his upbringing, but it's really disturbing to read at times. Yuki is so much more normal in that regard. That whole business of vowing to never showing any weakness re: music to Yuki again is just bizarre and extreme. And that last sentence, about having a bad dream and squashing it immediately? Freaky.
I loved his analysis of Yuki's personality (during sex, no less...such a multitasker, that one!), especially his suspicion that Yuki is even more of a perfectionist and has more pride than him. It's compelling to think that part of the reason Yuki didn't aspire to more earlier was that he couldn't bear the idea of trying and failing. I like how from Kei's POV Yuki has a dual nature, in that he is pure and sweet but also very stubborn, just as he can be innocent-seeming in bed or very very wanton. And just how much that appeals to Kei. I also love how he knows that Yuki has to learn to let himself loose and show what is inside of himself in order to become a truly great violinist. Kei is torn between wanting to see Yuki succeed and wanting to keep Yuki for himself. He wants Yuki to play like how he played next to the river, completely wild and free. It's a lovely image that contrasts so well with the struggle Yuki is going through in the main story to try to find his sound.